Monday, August 31, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
putting together the right puzzle pieces
what do i want in my life?have you asked yourself that question before?
yea most of everyone would have.in the sense that what you wanna study.what you wanna do for a living.but beyond that.and beyond that.
what do you want in your life?
what is the ultimate goal?
not just another week spent trying not to fail your papers.or another week enjoying yourself,having holidays,having no worries bothering your mind.beyond all those too.
*i have spent my life so far....now that i am reflecting on it.i have not done much.very little in fact.a whole 18 plus years.have i had a purpose all these while living my life?or was i just following the flow?just follow the crowd.its as if i am following where the traffic led me with no end destination in mind.
it was as if everything was laid out readily for me.step by step.what i had to do was just follow through.i don't think i had really thought it over-what else do i want in my life? what do i want to do? what is missing there?
what i had in mind all these while was simple.do what i have always dreamed of.once,i only searched for fun in life.i wished there were no worries.only fun.most unfortunately,life does not come without worries,pain,sorrow.not that they're all bad or good either.its like part of life.cannot be helped.cannot be changed.
due to the existence of sorrow,so there is also happiness,its counterpart.
is happiness the ultimate goal in life?in my life?in everyone else's life?probably not.
but is it not only normal human search for happiness in life?
is there something beyond that?
will i be satisfied if i just continue living my life as it is?
follow as things come my way.
not searching.
not seeking further.
not digging deepeer within.
not initiating.
no.i don't think i'd be satisfied.
i'm sure chance will come my way as long as i am willing to take it in.
be ready to change.take in something new.courageouos enough to try.
fill out the missing piece in the puzzle perhaps.
is that what i am searching for?
yea most of everyone would have.in the sense that what you wanna study.what you wanna do for a living.but beyond that.and beyond that.
what do you want in your life?
what is the ultimate goal?
not just another week spent trying not to fail your papers.or another week enjoying yourself,having holidays,having no worries bothering your mind.beyond all those too.
*i have spent my life so far....now that i am reflecting on it.i have not done much.very little in fact.a whole 18 plus years.have i had a purpose all these while living my life?or was i just following the flow?just follow the crowd.its as if i am following where the traffic led me with no end destination in mind.
it was as if everything was laid out readily for me.step by step.what i had to do was just follow through.i don't think i had really thought it over-what else do i want in my life? what do i want to do? what is missing there?
what i had in mind all these while was simple.do what i have always dreamed of.once,i only searched for fun in life.i wished there were no worries.only fun.most unfortunately,life does not come without worries,pain,sorrow.not that they're all bad or good either.its like part of life.cannot be helped.cannot be changed.
due to the existence of sorrow,so there is also happiness,its counterpart.
is happiness the ultimate goal in life?in my life?in everyone else's life?probably not.
but is it not only normal human search for happiness in life?
is there something beyond that?
will i be satisfied if i just continue living my life as it is?
follow as things come my way.
not searching.
not seeking further.
not digging deepeer within.
not initiating.
no.i don't think i'd be satisfied.
i'm sure chance will come my way as long as i am willing to take it in.
be ready to change.take in something new.courageouos enough to try.
fill out the missing piece in the puzzle perhaps.
is that what i am searching for?
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i feel like blogging at this moment.out of a sudden.i am so sleepy really.and its only 12...
so lazy.haven been doing my studying.tried to pay attention in class..not much success.half understand half no.prob less not understood.
list:
babbling~
so lazy.haven been doing my studying.tried to pay attention in class..not much success.half understand half no.prob less not understood.
list:
- 2 exams next week
- quiz this week
- counselling thu
- library lect thu
- assignment due 24 aug
- another assignment gotta be starting
- gotta be thinking bout my practical work
- thinking (improving i think)
- thinking (hmm..ignoring..)
- thinking (taking time..pending)
babbling~
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
a tribute to maymay's bday :)
i know its been such a long time.hahas.only now i decided to post up some of the pics we took in yatai during may's bday.thats wayyyy back in may.hahas~
i only have some of pics of the wonderful yummy scrumpdiddlycious japanese food we had that day though. :)
i think it was like 5 course meal or smtg.very satisfying...goodness in the food.hehes~the tam chiakness.
i believe may may is bored waiting here.hahas.ooo~ we hired this robes cz we never wore em before. :)
nice brinjal chopsticks holder.
the group who went....mr bart was taking the pic.with the owner's of the restaurant...the lady and her japanese husband.she said he's very shy.lols~
yummy chicken....i rmbr someone couldn't get enough of the nice sweet sauce they cleared all of the sauce on the leave. lols~
sushi!!
chawanmushi....extra nice....very nice and soft...:P
i think this is beef....
uuu~ fish..made especially...not in the menu :)
dessertttttt~
happy may may...:)
i only have some of pics of the wonderful yummy scrumpdiddlycious japanese food we had that day though. :)
i think it was like 5 course meal or smtg.very satisfying...goodness in the food.hehes~the tam chiakness.
i believe may may is bored waiting here.hahas.ooo~ we hired this robes cz we never wore em before. :)
nice brinjal chopsticks holder.
the group who went....mr bart was taking the pic.with the owner's of the restaurant...the lady and her japanese husband.she said he's very shy.lols~
yummy chicken....i rmbr someone couldn't get enough of the nice sweet sauce they cleared all of the sauce on the leave. lols~
sushi!!
chawanmushi....extra nice....very nice and soft...:P
i think this is beef....
uuu~ fish..made especially...not in the menu :)
dessertttttt~
happy may may...:)
winter break in christchurch
winter break in christchurch pics.some of the pictures are small cz i stole it from fb.lols.
saw a bunch of clowns walking pass when we were wondering round town for lunch.hehes~
in the tram.i like the tram....very pretty and ancient feeling.lol
random pics in telephone booth.pat likes telephone booths.lols~
some of the stuffs from fudge cottage in cchrch.i like the bailey's log the most.thats the one that writes happy birthday.:P
taking pics on the day we arrived in cchurch.we stayed just right outside the cathedral church.x base packers.
this is on the way from welly back to palmie.in the bus.
in hanmer springs...
pics taken when maymay and i were cycling the two person bike.thats side by side btw.not front and back.
the map on the "bicycle" :P
maymay steering...
strawberry and mr strawberry.lols~
tram...
phone booth.
cool ancient looking building
waffle
hot chocolate in ricca mall
inside the cathedral church.i think this is a big big musical instrument.
haha.nice amusing tiles.
inside of the church
cute seagull~
tramway restaurant.lols.like written on it.wanted to try to got to the restaurant.but its a bit too costly.and formal too i think.
hahas.don't you think its so funny the seagull is sitting on the statue's head?there's always a seagull everytime i look.
chess in the square.big chess set.
cathedral church.
* not much pics.this shall do anyways.for more do look in fb.friend uploaded.not me.lols~
saw a bunch of clowns walking pass when we were wondering round town for lunch.hehes~
in the tram.i like the tram....very pretty and ancient feeling.lol
random pics in telephone booth.pat likes telephone booths.lols~
some of the stuffs from fudge cottage in cchrch.i like the bailey's log the most.thats the one that writes happy birthday.:P
taking pics on the day we arrived in cchurch.we stayed just right outside the cathedral church.x base packers.
this is on the way from welly back to palmie.in the bus.
in hanmer springs...
pics taken when maymay and i were cycling the two person bike.thats side by side btw.not front and back.
the map on the "bicycle" :P
maymay steering...
strawberry and mr strawberry.lols~
tram...
phone booth.
cool ancient looking building
waffle
hot chocolate in ricca mall
inside the cathedral church.i think this is a big big musical instrument.
haha.nice amusing tiles.
inside of the church
cute seagull~
tramway restaurant.lols.like written on it.wanted to try to got to the restaurant.but its a bit too costly.and formal too i think.
hahas.don't you think its so funny the seagull is sitting on the statue's head?there's always a seagull everytime i look.
chess in the square.big chess set.
cathedral church.* not much pics.this shall do anyways.for more do look in fb.friend uploaded.not me.lols~
changing
its july 19th.sch has started for a week already for the second semester.pretty free this week but next week's when everything's gonna turn busy busy.skipped a few stuffs here and there.didn't really know why myself,no idea what to answer when ppl ask me too.i just didn't feel like going.i just wanted a lazy weekend so i can sit back and relax for a bit before the hectic semester really begins. :P
a lot of thgs has changed already this semester.a lot.everything feels different.there's so many changes.feels so different.i will have to adapt anyhow.how can i not?ah so far the lazy weekend has been alright.was free on fri and i went out for lunch.came back and helped with the "ban chean kuih" and lasagna.went to monroe common room where maymay and pat played piano.changed then went straight to international food night.we went so late we didn even get to try the different food served.anyways was so full from the unsuccessful attempts of pancakes.:P all in our tummy.came back and hung out.miss that....haven't been doing that for awhile already.the next day...saturday.went out to town again to wonder around town and brunch.eileen the bear was no longer on the shelf.damn....part of me thinks i should have bought it the first time i saw eileen.now its replaced by nina already.but i want eileen.i shall somehow find eileen.
cooked chicken rice for dinner.had it with pat bart and may.pat cooked abc soup(stands for arnion,botato and carrot lols).and bart had smoked salmon.good simple dinner.yums. :P after that we hung out awhile before deciding to go to mr cue.usual hang out spot.haven't been there for awhile already....pretty quiet these days i think.tk and lee ain't here anymore.one of the many changes around.
sunday...is yet to come.had a day planned out thoh.watching harry potter.before that lunch in town i suppose.ntg new to that.everything is what we do usually.but it feels new somehow someway or another.its already sunday.means monday's gonna come.followed by tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday and sunday again.thats how the cycle goes.life which is carried on over and over again.repetitive.cycle.routine.
i suddenly remembered a song..top of the world.smtg in the lines struck me.....
.... tmrw will be just the same for you and me......
i wish tmrw will be as good a day as today.and the days to come will be very good days too.of cz there will be bad days definitely.no avoiding that....but i hope not as bad days.or it can be followed by awesome wonderful days. :P
good to think positive.at times.not gonna last long but it is now.good. :P lols
a lot of thgs has changed already this semester.a lot.everything feels different.there's so many changes.feels so different.i will have to adapt anyhow.how can i not?ah so far the lazy weekend has been alright.was free on fri and i went out for lunch.came back and helped with the "ban chean kuih" and lasagna.went to monroe common room where maymay and pat played piano.changed then went straight to international food night.we went so late we didn even get to try the different food served.anyways was so full from the unsuccessful attempts of pancakes.:P all in our tummy.came back and hung out.miss that....haven't been doing that for awhile already.the next day...saturday.went out to town again to wonder around town and brunch.eileen the bear was no longer on the shelf.damn....part of me thinks i should have bought it the first time i saw eileen.now its replaced by nina already.but i want eileen.i shall somehow find eileen.
cooked chicken rice for dinner.had it with pat bart and may.pat cooked abc soup(stands for arnion,botato and carrot lols).and bart had smoked salmon.good simple dinner.yums. :P after that we hung out awhile before deciding to go to mr cue.usual hang out spot.haven't been there for awhile already....pretty quiet these days i think.tk and lee ain't here anymore.one of the many changes around.
sunday...is yet to come.had a day planned out thoh.watching harry potter.before that lunch in town i suppose.ntg new to that.everything is what we do usually.but it feels new somehow someway or another.its already sunday.means monday's gonna come.followed by tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday and sunday again.thats how the cycle goes.life which is carried on over and over again.repetitive.cycle.routine.
i suddenly remembered a song..top of the world.smtg in the lines struck me.....
.... tmrw will be just the same for you and me......
i wish tmrw will be as good a day as today.and the days to come will be very good days too.of cz there will be bad days definitely.no avoiding that....but i hope not as bad days.or it can be followed by awesome wonderful days. :P
good to think positive.at times.not gonna last long but it is now.good. :P lols
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