life is so short

life is so short.thats a phrase so often heard but the fact of it never really sinks in until until something comes up that makes you think about it.before long,the effect of it just fades away slowly.so its like a constant reminder that i have to set for myself i think.

but its so difficult to live life like there's no tomorrow cz then i wouldn't be studying when i need to.instead i'd be hanging out with friends,travelling,doing all the stuffs i wanna do before i die.we can't really live life with no regrets at all eh.minimal,yes probably but i think regrets just come popping once in a while if not often.if so then probably we can only do our best in the time being.minimise the regrets that i may have.enjoy life but at the same time do what we must do.explore,have fun and experience.

if i just walk out today and it is raining hailstones so heavy that it killed me that instant i walked out, i would have regretted not doing a lot of things yest and all the days before yesterday.if i walk out tomorrow and a car just came crashing my way and the next thg i know(i probably wouldn't know) i'm dead,i would have done so many things i've done today in a different way.but that can't be helped.i can't see death coming my way.i can't afford to live life like i'm gonna get killed tomorrow.so be it.

**today's the last day of hols.i don't want hols to end.then it'd be back to the usual days attending lectures,labs,tutorials.not that i hate or resent it.probably a lil.but i should learn to enjoy it.i'm gonna do this for a very long time still.i just prefer lazing around and play which is something impossible to do at all times.the past few days haven't been really fruitful.i want today to be a more productive day.but i also want to enjoy the last day of hols and have fun.its a sunday and i have a new resolution for sundays too.and the only reason i may not like hols is during the end of hols or the workload or studying i have to do during the hols.this part.

chemistry test on wednesday.
back to school tomorrow.
i still prefer calling it school.

chilliness

there is something.something.like a pleasure in the chilliness.how chilly it is out in the cold at night.but there is something present there that you can't find in warmth.

is it possible?

is it possible for happiness to stay forever and never go away?and sadness never ever come knocking on your door?ever.

i know the answer is obvious.but i just felt like asking.i am not sad btw. :P

awesome pot luck dinner :P

wow 3 posts in a day.i was bored in first post and thinking,in deep thoughts in the second and 3rd one.....excited as usual :P.gonna post up pics on potluck dinner although as usual i stole it from fb. eheheheh...
and those who read my previous posts..i was planning to finish up my minced pork in the freezer so wanna cook it for dinner today.i didn really know what to cook...googled for some recipe and i decided on sweet and sour pork balls.:P and luckily they turn out well....and thanks to all who patiently waited for my slowness in cooking and helped me cooking....sorry sorry that all the dishes were cold already...i would consider starting cooking real early or probably train myself to cook faster like yy said.when i look at the pics with all the good food and happy ppl....i just feel so happy and contented.yay!!!

lemme describe in detail.from top clockwise.the one with someone cutting it,thts chris's apple pie*yum*right below it,the one in whitish is may's mash potatoes with garlic*yum*and right below that is a pot is judy's hot and sour soup*yum*beside that pot is an open pot which is siew yee's curry*yum*beside the pot is a bowl in black and thats the potato and chicken*yum*beneath that is white rice lo.and beside the chicken is the egg + tomato*yum*and below that is judy's beef masak hitam(with raisins)*yum*left handside of that is pork balls*yum too*damn i just realised i didn take pic of the sauce-so sad.....and up there in yellow is kumara which is like sweet potato i think and vege.the real one ac still has another vege(yy's)*yum* , the sweet and sour sauce*yum for myself too*,keira's baked carrots and potatoes*yum* and tk and lee brought fish and chips*yum* aft.ah....happiness with lotsa food and happy ppl gathering together :P ~cheers~
*update-i suddenly figured i should put everyones name eh*clockwise from left: james,pat,chris,may,bart,keira,yy,judy,siew yee and me. :P
tk and lee weren't here yet when we were excited taking pics from camera on top of fridge....pics courtesy of siew yee's cam and efficientness of posting it up on fb like a few hours aft the dinner :P
group pic with yummy food :P
random*
i like this pic...cz i took it and everyone look so happy :P
james looking eager and greedy...such pig.lol.gonna kill me for saying that

ok the pork balls may not look that yummy but they dont taste that bad :P i'm sorta proud of em....very happy...but most job not done by me also...they're suppose to go with the sweet and sour sauce i made*not in the pic*but the sauce was way too much i just threw em out... a bit sakit hati le.....effort....*you can actually see a glimpse of that sauce over the top of the pic*
freshly fried pork balls...i only sorta fried a bit cz i was so kan cheong and everyone was so nice to help me cz i so wudn fin if i was doing it alone.thanks!!!
judy's beef masak hitam with a lot of love thats why it tastes soo ogood....very yummy !!!
judy's yum yum hot and sour soup....with the pickled vege and mushrooms and tofu and chicken slices inside.....nice.....but i was too full to drink a lot
yum yum potatoes and chicken....i think similar to the ones i attempted last time *the one that looks so pale*i dunno who made these,sorry cz i was so slow cooking when they came i didn have time to find out whose is whose.but i think should be pat or chris's
pat's tomato fried egg*nyummmmmmmmmm* :P
nyum nyum curry siew yee and judy combined forces to make :P

the truths

i judge people
i think some people shouldn't do this and that but yet i think i do it all the same
i try hard to be extra nice just because someone said i am nice and i feel like i should live up to the standard
i have bad thoughts and intentions i know i shouldn't have but i'm still thinking
i wish i am better than others
i am jealous and envious of others
i want to have what others have too
i am greedy
i am demanding
i want people to like me more than others
i try so hard i don't know if i am still i
i am lazy and takes things for granted and regret later
i am not as good as some people may think i am but i like that they thought of me that way
i like people's attention and don't like it at the same time
i am territorial of my friends at times
i like to waste time
i hate to admit to my weaknesses

random realisation

its just a very random thg i feel like writing down at this very moment.after i came across some stuffs.someone's blog really.just had this thought of - i have a life.i should go out and do stuffs that are meaningful because i can.i feel the sudden urge to travel around and see ppl's culture,lifestyle and help if i can.i feel there's so much more i can do that i am not making the best of.i hope i will not lose this feeling.strive and search and explore.more.

wednesdays with trevor

yep i said i'd be away for a bit,probably until after bio labs test.but ah....*my bio cells test is this coming wed*i'm so bored this morning....woke up at 7.35am and missed my chance to have "ew char kueh" and "tauhua" and "tau chui" for breakfast.i missed it by 35 minutes.damn.i felt like i just fell asleep from last night for like 30 minutes and its already 7.35.i didn't even realise when i fell asleep.i was suppose to study bio cells...just can't get myself to do it just yet.

yea,so i wanted to blog bout my goal of becoming a better person.heheh....my resolution.i don't think i'm making much progress really.man.i have all this bad thoughts in my mind that i need to get rid off.so terrible.must learn to shoo them off my head.and i did a bad thing yesterday.i wasn't really feeling it when i was doing it.but now i thought back.i don't think its really nice of me.:( was talking to a new person....just talking,introducing...finding topics to talk about but i felt so awkward...like we run out of topic so to be polite*i mean thats naturally what you do*so you just think of what to say and keep the conversation running.it was really not that bad talking to her really.but i wanted to like escape from talking to her.and and how can i ???and right after talking to her i was like oooh....."lucky its over","at last" that sorta thg.and talk bout my conversation with her to others after that?not the nicest thg ever but it just came spontaneously to me.argh....so does not fit my goal of becoming good person.have to learn not to do that really.evil of me.hump.must tell myself not to do that again.and not to think bad about others when i don't really know for myself.must remind myself not to judge!

and yeah initially i wanted to blog about my all time favourite book.i wonder i've ever blogged bout this cause i know myself i get so excited bout smtg i like and can babble on and on and on about it.well...its my blog i can do whatever i want. :P tuesdays with morrie.its gotta be a damn popular book everyone had read by now.i know its common but its still my favourite.really cool book everyone should keep a copy even you've read it.*planning on doing that myself*so inspiring and amazing.just awes me....how someone can be so optimistic when the world looks like its crumbling onto him.after reading the book*right after* i was so inspired to be looking at the positive side of everything of life.but of course that inspiration decreased gradually with time.but still...it sorta amazes you in the way that you think you should be living your life happily cause you're so so much more lucky than so many people out there.he could be so happy even though i think most people would be under depression if they're in his shoes.hehe...just a random thg.there's a lecturer here,his name is trevor.he just sometimes reminds me of morrie.well,i don't mean to say he'll get a disease or something*touch wood,i would never want that!*he seems like the nice cool person.and lecturing chem.i dun like chem that much.but attending his lectures make me smile cz he look so contented teaching something he likes and enjoy so much.and he looks so happy...like inner happy in him.hahha...i'm babbling on again.and one of my friends jokingly said he wanted to write a book...wednesdays with trevor.funny.ah...that was something random to get out of my head. :P

well,well,just felt like getting that stuff outta me when i'm thinking bout it.sounds like some philosophy or something so i shall move on.nothing much been going.these few weeks aren't very eventful cause everybody's just busy with their term tests.but ahah!easter breaks coming soon.can't wait for it to come.no bio cells lab and physics lab.so happy.and 2 weeks break.going easter camp.hoping to go somewhere and do some shopping.fun stuffs ahead. :P but of course,after easter break there's chem term test.o-o....must study real hard and get someone to teach me cz most of the time i don't understand what the lecturers saying.sei lo.

anyways,was thinking of getting rid off my mince pork i bought in the fridge so i googled to see what i can cook.aish....and there's a few choices.don't know which to cook.i dun really mind just chucking some random stuffs together and cook but well,i'm not the only one eating it.i have to be considerate :P.not everyone so chin chai like me.heheh....no good chin chai...no standard.so.probably i'll try spicy and sour pork balls??hope it works out.will ask some advice and see :P.i wanted to cook japanese tofu with pork mince ac.cz i miss eating "tit pan tofu".but i dun have japanese tofu.tonight we're having like massive dinner again.we seem to have it every saturday.today's its gonna be like pot luck.have that quite frequently.reminds me of the nice bak kut teh,mushrooms,kangkung+belacan from last pot luck.nyum..hungry d :P.so fun.love doing this..get togethers and food :P.and tmrw going out for dim sum i think.how can i refuse that tempting and luring offer???hehehehhe...