He loved me first

ooh and it's one of those random emo moments again? haha. i was attempting hard at starting my 33.33% worth assignment which is due this saturday. and i am still so distracted as usual. i have been wanting to get it done from early of this week. say monday. and it's thursday, i skipped my lectures to finish it yet i am still procrastinating. thumbs up to myself -____-

decided to give myself a break (more than the time i work i believe) from all those reading journals and articles. it's like those sort of reward i give myself for being a "good girl" --> facebooking! ahah. what more fun and productive then looking at photos on fb. my hobby i tell you. something about photos that just never fails to entertain. stumbled upon this album of people. all the familiar faces in the album. it's a great album that is. most ppl from OCF in there. reminds me of them, the times ppl share together at OCF on friday nights, hanging out at the centre/chaplaincy just for fun, times cleaning up kitchen, washing dishes, drying dishes, the laughter, the dessert, the sincere smile from everyone's heart, the fellowship, the friendship, the love, coming to know the Lord. it's all so amazing. the true love everyone gives out, because You first loved us. i used to think how ppl may not be sincere, and its all just an act. well, i think that crossed my mind before. but You made it all possible, for ppl to love others whole heartedly. yes, i do get tired. but the smiles and laughter i saw from the photos. i could tell they were real. the love in them are real. nothing fakes that. not the best actor. there will be moments we get tired, we are weak and vulnerable. we are human. but You make all the difference. because of You, it's almost as if we can recharge our energy, plug in the adaptor to You and regain back our drained energy.
Lord, i thank You for You have found and saved me. and so loved me although i don't deserve Your love. Lord, i thank You for Your grace and Your mercy that i had known You. thank You for showing me what love is. Amen.