my first cookies!!!!

ahah!!!!!my first cookies...and ten ten ten ten......and its cornflake cookies.hehehehe...alright how can anyone be perfect in their first baking attempt?so it wasn't perfect and with some burnt here and there.and tastes so so.well,i am still damn proud of it!hehehehehe.....and with the semangat that i have since my first baking, thus i was set out today to bake ...again. and today my mission is making kek batik!! for those who do not know what is that, it is a type of awesomely AWESOME type of cake like stuff. oh my,it was not easy to make kek batik. yest was so much more easier with teeni helping around in our experiment. but today its just me.so after hard work of cleaning up my not so clean kitchen, i'm off to this sort of mini market like shop just behind my house. thank god its around-just behind my house. with my lacking experience, i had to run to the shop a few times that i think the workers would actually recognise me. first time, i went to but butter and inadequate stuff before i start my baking. then i realise the the mix isn't turning dark colour....then i went to the shop again to buy cooking chocolate cause the mix wouldn't turn dark although i put a hell lot of milo in it.more of it, my parents might slaughter me. then only i realised i have to heat the mix up so that it would change its colour.how silly! after that i was stirring the mix in the wok and adding the biscuits that it needs.....then....the biscuits seems like they're not enough....ahhhhhhhhhh...that means i have to change for the third time so i could run to the shop and then walk under the hot sun and see the funny stares of the workers. ah well, i do need it and there i went and came back. :) man that was all worth it when my kek batik looks good. yay!!!!

ahh aren't you just excited that cny is just around the corner.i'm so looking forward to it.friends gathering, family's coming back,the tonnes of food,and house-hopping and receiving ang pow.its definitely one of the best times of the year. the fact that how everyone takes the trouble to go back to their hometown to be with their families and friends getting back for reunion just pumps up yr adrenaline level. ahh..alas...as much as i'm excited for chinese new year,i'm half-heartedly doubting am i really that happy that cny is so soon. the sooner i'm celebrating it, the sooner i'll leave. its really ironic. when you don't get something, the more you want it. now you get it, you just have second thoughts. i realise its not fair for some who didn't even get the opprtunity to get that something. and i'm guilty that i felt that way but i just can't help it. i wonder if it will be as good as i imagined it to be, as great as i wish it would be or as perfect as how people say it would be. well, the answer is a definite no, anyone can answer that. life ain't that simple, never will it be. bumps just never disappears. they do stop awhile now and then, but continues but never do they end. i wonder if i will adapt, i wonder if i can handle being away so far and so long, i wonder if i can make friends, i wonder if i can cope with the studies...i wonder a lot, i admit. just like what my fairygodsis said. have i admitted to that before.well, i am now. i am a worry-freak. i just hope for the best and like the song goes....dreams stay big,and worries stay small....................

oh oh

all the amount of food i'm eating....its taking effect..weight is getting heavier and heavier.everywhere i go,everyone tells me the same thing

"long time didnt see you...erm..you seem to have gain some weight huh"
"chubby cheeks...means ho chiak ho tua,"thats what mr chan said.

ah ah...i know...definitely have been ho chiak ho tua or else where can gain this much weight..until everyone can tell...somebody told me also..i think thats pn ang, i definetely enjoyed the food inn shah alam else i wudn have add on what i have now..

hump...gotta start kiam pui...sounds determined but ended up tonite..was so excited although i wasn't really hungry during dinner,i ate ate and ate.well, you heard me. and that is tau hua, wantan mee, fucuk yi mai, cha kuey teow into my tummy then kept there and along to my thighs and bum as well.haihss....when will i actually will be determined enough to kiam pui??need to cut down the enormous portion i eat plus the essential EXERCISE!!!!have to cut down on my tam chiak-ness...

i wonder when will i see the weighing scale be on forties again??