a truck hit my mind

today smtg smacked me real hard, like right in the face. every word weighed so much, because they were so true. the exact things that i should not have done, i have done them all. the thoughts i should never had in my mind, they were infesting my mind. then i realised, i was looking for treasures at the wrong places all along. i had wrong priorities when i thought i was focused on the right one. but in reality, i was fooling myself. something else was on the top of my list without me consciously knowing it. and everytime someone asked me, i had the right answer, only i was not living my right answer. now that i know i was on the wrong path, i wish to go back on track. to go on the path meant to be followed. the right path. the right reasons. i hope i do not stray off track again but yet again it may be a learning experience. i am sorry and thank you.

out

i believe.....
when you can finally say it out. you're over it. and you've released it, and also yourself.
the struggle is to first having the intention of doing so. and a million other excuses preventing you from doing so.
and how every excuse pushes back yr urge. sometimes when the rush comes do just go for it. else when it passes, it just dies down and you start creating new reasons for yourself.

bread

i've been craving for bread these days cz i've been watching this korean drama which involves bread-making.crazy i know me. -___-
and today i was browsing through christ sanctuary blog posts and weekly thoughts and i came across this.there were so many posts that caught my attention really but this one was one of the particular ones.

(:

10/10/10

happy birthday?? (:

Day 121

my post-it decorated wall (:

Day 120

cute #1

cute#2

cute#3

Day 119

just love the pic (:

Day 118

post mooncake fest away from home

eh?

what's this strange peculiar blissful feeling i have these days?
contented and happy.
but it's a good thg. (:
*skips off*

Day 117

 is the bird trying to get the apple?

Day 116 - awesome dinner even greater company (:

the spread!! oh dear. so much variety!! :D

chutneydearie. so cute <3

the fellowship :D

stickydatepudding

homemade mooncake with sweetpotato filling.ping bi leh!!! 

i think aunty made this cz we love eggs with sambal sooo much!

the very awesome egg. dang i just cant rmbr the name

some bread with the very nice sauce thgy.

chicken. i dunno the name also sigh

siu bak (homemade too!)

potato with chicken! 

roasted chic

ahhhhhh rojak!!!! 

lo mai kai *glad ppl liked it* :D

o.o assam fish!! uh oh. i want more 

black fungus dish.so homey

salad.coleslaw i think

dumplings

applecinammon muffins

i dunno whats this called but got orange peel in there ! :D

jelly-O

it was the mooncake/lantern festival night thg. and we had an awesome dinner with great company. i just couldn't resist posting up so many foooood photos. just cz i like food heee~

now i am starting is this all i'm motivated to blog about from now on? lol. hopefully there'll be more to it.
one thing about studying here and just this place especially, i notice tht whenever we miss eating anything we make it ourselves. which is pretty impressive really, everything felt like its possible to make now. (:

Day 115

ok that's a blur pic. but that's an awesome apple cupcake with custard filling. uh oh. noms. *salivates*
blogging at this hour, about food tht is, not such a good idea. -__-

it's so awesome really to get these treats in class whenever you're hungry or you rushed out of hse without breakfast and your great classmates will come along with smtg to share. (:

ain't i blessed? haha

lost and found

i found the missing puzzle piece. the one that was once lost and now is now found. (:

Day 114

uh oh. now i am so hungry looking at this pic. reminds me of what silly ideas my friends and i were talking about - developing a machine tht could produce REAL food out of the so many photos that ppl (more like me really) take of food.

this is the random butter/curry chicken that i made myself the other day with what i had in my fringe. yums leh i think. hehe. now i am longing for supper -__-

Day 113

so so so adorable (:

Day 112

ahoy !!! (:

Day 111

(:

Day 110

not everyone is in this photo as i hoped everyone would be. but all meant a lot to me (:

nothing replaces them. i wonder to myself, why do i take so long to feel blessed and blissful when they are around me all the time?

i wish i could fit everyone who mattered to me in that photo. my family back home, my other awesome friends who are scattered all around the world and back in malaysia.

thank you for making my 20 years so far a great one.

this is an addict!! (:

woooo! homemade almond biscotti. i'm so into baking these days really. er i didn't make these tho. so yum, my classmate jen made them.
i am considering seriously, the next time ppl ask me if i prefer cooking or baking i might give the answer baking.

what i feel like trying to bake:

• macaroons (aft looking at my friend's awesome photos of macaroons she had)
• biscotti (aft tasting them for the first time and friend says it's supposedly easy)
• green tea cake (just cz i wanna eat)
• egg tart
• crepe cake
• fondant icing 

so i am ambitious LOL. 

Day 109

ok i had this super spicy korean noodles as supper (was suppose to be soup actually but i made into dried ones) when i had my sorethroat. great jiejing! -.-

Day 108

outside of vet tower

Day 107

dry bak kut teh. not very successful - not spicy one. prob cz i was rushing thru cz i was hungry. blurry pic cz of tht too

Day 106

pancake on a random morning. really..pancakes are suppose to be easy to make. suppose to be.

Day 105

i just like the look of clouds.

Day 104 - mar-neeee!

woohooo!! :D

i cannot explain the excitement. at age (almost 20) i have not really worked. well in the sense that i work and get paid that is. and i was checking my account today and and and.... guess what?!

no need guess also know la. my pay from this tree-planting job during spring break. IT'S IN!!!!!!!

:D :D

i can feel the accomplishment. hehe.not to mention it adds up to my depleting account numbers.

i wish i wish i could just spent that money to get a bicycle. but no. of cz not.

i've gotta remember my promise. yes rmbr my own promise. nobody else would know but yea.


so so the first i do when i see the $$$$ in my account. i did smtg sampat. hehe.
there there. take a look (:

err with my cincai print screen and all you can actually see i was uploading pics on fb LOL.
i hope i censored what should not be shown to other ppl.

ahh wouldn't my parents be proud of me? hehe... *SS*
sis and bro, if you're reading this, show to pa and ma. hehe.

Day 103

it's spring time. do you know that? (:

Day 102

failed okonomiyaki. cz it burst into pieces and cz the sauce is bbq sauce. and also i was running out of eggs so....

Day 102

it's suppose to be 176

Day 101

the room is so messy -.-

Day 100

100th day!!! and here's a photo of a poker addict lol.beginner's luck?

Day 99

interesting painting in the PNcity library cafe

Day 98

pretty clouds with reflections

i have issues

i seriously have issues.
issues of what sort you may ask. i just don't know how to describe them or more to i am unwilling to say what it is but yet i still want to pour out a portion of it.
so there, i have issues.
so please bear with me while i am still stupidly stuck in it.
countless of times i tried tackling and thought i have tackled and have got over it and behind my back and up come it resurfacing.
that's probably because how i always run away from my problems. please! listen, you have to face your situation and solve it. and running away/escaping is not considered a solution.

*****

two matches.
both were lighted. one was blown out straight after it got lighted up. the other was left burning almost until the edge.
what's the difference between both match sticks?
one weaker than the other.
don't let the flame burn you like the second match. cause combustion needs energy and the anger/flame in you will just use up yr energy you know.

*****

forgive and forget.
you know how ppl say you should forgive and forget?
i heard this different view point from the same person who told the match sticks story.
ppl forgive, yes. but they don't forget. we learn from past mistakes.
we don't forget not in the sense that we bring up past matters again and again to irritate someone.
but more like, if you let this teenager babysit your kid and he/she trashed yr hse by having a massive party. you're not likely going to have the person babysit again the next day eh.



so the conclusion is i have issues now.
forgive me in anyway i have hurt anyone. i am in the process of getting rid of that issue.
please be patient with me.

Day 97

lol so long since we had this "cho tai d" while waiting for food.
see maymay's royal flush and bart said "you got royal flush? bulls**t" LOL