remember remember

i think so far, or even for the past year, i've been so blurred. i had moved too fast, or should i say i wanted to move so fast and i am missing the whole main point altogether. i probably only took notice of the little sidekick details which i would not say didn't matter. but not as much. then today, i thought, certainly i would not be happy if i am just wishing everything will pass by. i am not taking in what i learn. it is as if i am a machine where information passes through then the machine has no memory whatsoever what had went through after. this is what i wanted but why am i not looking at the end point? until yesterday, i was only thinking about tomorrow. not the week after, not the next month, certainly not the years ahead. i am no kid no more. i should start thinking bout these stuffs eh.

my mind has to grow up.