new year's almost here. counting down - 9 more hours to 2010 according to msian time.a year just passed, just like tht. it definitely felt soon enough. going into a brand new year has it's pressures. means you've grown another year. or more like you should have grown another year. growing up means more decisions to make, more dilemmas, more responsibilities. at least i think so.
fuhh... but bad thoughts aside. brand new year also means new beginning. resolutions to make. new targets to work towards. thats not too bad a thought. looking forward to good times ahead in 2010.
wishing everyone a happy new year HAPPY 2010!!!
and not forgetting today's new year's eve --> 31st december so birthday wishes to my bro and to dearest pat pat (:
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
back...
i am back in msia for almost a week now. the feeling is strange after you have left a place for so long. prob i had a bit of time to get used to the asian country feeling cz i was in spore for awhile but it is still different when i was back in taiping. i was preparing myself for more changes to be frank. but my house still looks the same. LOL still as messy, my mom is prob gonna kill me if she knows i'm letting this fact out. haha. not like my friends who have been to my hse are ignorant to this. :P everywhere else seems pretty much the same really. well there is the new hotel in taman tasik. i can't think of any new stuff really. are there more ??
the good thg about being home is family and friends. haven't seen them for so long. always good to catch up and tell about my stuffs and let them tell theirs too. besides that is tv. i can channel surf again! one of my hobbies. hehes. never attached to tv when i am away from home. only glued to it when i am back again. has it got smtg to do with my hse?? there's also bali and nicky :)
oo~ and not forgetting all the comments i get when ppl see me. geez. as much as i tried to avoid the "ooOOH~ you're fatter!" it's really inevitable. bahhhh... isk isk. and surprisingly i also got "you look like you've grown taller". i didn't know i can still grow at this age. it is prob because i continuously eat and some of the many of my intake has contributed to my height??
there's so many to do while i am back here. and i seem to have too lil time for it. hmms. i shall try my hardest to squeeze everything in. one of it is the supposedly kiam pui plan. hmms. hmmMM~
the good thg about being home is family and friends. haven't seen them for so long. always good to catch up and tell about my stuffs and let them tell theirs too. besides that is tv. i can channel surf again! one of my hobbies. hehes. never attached to tv when i am away from home. only glued to it when i am back again. has it got smtg to do with my hse?? there's also bali and nicky :)
oo~ and not forgetting all the comments i get when ppl see me. geez. as much as i tried to avoid the "ooOOH~ you're fatter!" it's really inevitable. bahhhh... isk isk. and surprisingly i also got "you look like you've grown taller". i didn't know i can still grow at this age. it is prob because i continuously eat and some of the many of my intake has contributed to my height??
there's so many to do while i am back here. and i seem to have too lil time for it. hmms. i shall try my hardest to squeeze everything in. one of it is the supposedly kiam pui plan. hmms. hmmMM~
Thursday, November 19, 2009
is ignorance bliss???
you know these days i am so so lazy to read?not just academic reading like textbooks but i am lazy even to read storybooks which i used to love to read.yes,my laziness is at such a high level that i refuse to read interesting storybooks,any err fashion or gossipy/celebrity article even from magazines which don't requires much understanding, or news which i don't really read anyways.i am thinking what had struck me until i am at this state.pushing away all sorts of reading.well,except blogs. "???" why is that? this is really bad,really. i am lost with the rest of the world since i don't read news. not news in my own country,not news in the country i am currently at now. while i am staying now at the farm, they usually talk about serious topics. at least i do consider them to be. about countries economics, population, religions, cultures,news(current or not)... and since i am from a different country and culture altogether, it is only natural they ask me about these. i realise how little i know, how ignorant and how little i care about all these stuffs when most of the time i would just turn and look at my friend and expect them to answer those questions for me. i am clueless. reading is definitely one great way to widen your knowledge in all aspects.
i have so many times ignored the magazines - reader's digest, NG. flipped them and closed and just put them back. i enjoy looking at pictures and just allow my brain to laze and not read. finally, today i picked up a national geographic magazine and forced myself to read it out of boredom during my break after a day of so-so hardwork. needless to say, it was a burst of refreshing information for my mind. i would usually go for animal related articles in the NG mag just because it is my interest and my sort of thing. besides reading about the king penguin, i also came across a very very interesting article on the current state of Somalia - not stable and not having a government ruling it( i think). violence is occurring everywhere while it's neighbour which broke off, Somaliland is rather peaceful. all these are happening right now and i am so ignorant to even to learn about it. perhaps at times i just choose not to know thinking i can escape from the fact that these are happening. avoiding and running away. it is pointless though because however you try to run away, the stuffs stills happens anyhow.
i should start reading more now. it is like my new resolution. i had once dreamed of becoming a journalist. perhaps now that i cannot pursue this dream of mine, i could at least read and learn more from others.
hmm.
i have so many times ignored the magazines - reader's digest, NG. flipped them and closed and just put them back. i enjoy looking at pictures and just allow my brain to laze and not read. finally, today i picked up a national geographic magazine and forced myself to read it out of boredom during my break after a day of so-so hardwork. needless to say, it was a burst of refreshing information for my mind. i would usually go for animal related articles in the NG mag just because it is my interest and my sort of thing. besides reading about the king penguin, i also came across a very very interesting article on the current state of Somalia - not stable and not having a government ruling it( i think). violence is occurring everywhere while it's neighbour which broke off, Somaliland is rather peaceful. all these are happening right now and i am so ignorant to even to learn about it. perhaps at times i just choose not to know thinking i can escape from the fact that these are happening. avoiding and running away. it is pointless though because however you try to run away, the stuffs stills happens anyhow.
i should start reading more now. it is like my new resolution. i had once dreamed of becoming a journalist. perhaps now that i cannot pursue this dream of mine, i could at least read and learn more from others.
hmm.
Monday, November 9, 2009
day 2 and day 3
Day 2
woke up really early to milk cows.5 am.gosh i cannot remember the last time i actually woke up at 5 am.these days i only stay up until 5 not wake up tht time.owh now come to think of it, just that rare first day of exam cz i was worried. back to milking cows.so the routine is milking cows at 6 am but gotta wake up at 5 smtg,eat breakfast yadaa yadaa. and milk cows.after milking i just got back with my friend to laze around.since that is a sunday there's not much for us to do.so back to our designated room.was too bored i fell asleep.lunch.slept again.there's really ntg much on this day except we went to church at night.its a small little cute church in woodville.and bunny said mostly farmers go there.and the cool thg is its so small everyone knew each other so well.and they would play music and all which i think is so welcome-y countryish.and and.....pete and bunny plays electric guitar.how cool is that??? o.O and the daughter, amber would play the violin.not much for the day.
Day 3
the routine is there you see.milking time is 6 am and 3 pm.around there.its such a tiring day.never thought it would be this tiring cz all the work we done during the weekend seemed ok anyways. well probably cz it was weekend and not much work.monday is just a killer. i have aches all over.i feel like a man.LOL.cz after milking we went to do weed control.yes weeds.do you think of little small sized plants we can use our hands to pluck??well at least i thought weed control probably meant spraying some chemicals or smtg.it turned out to be this bushy thorny thg which is called thistles.gosh.they are bushy.big.with very big fat root too.so we have to use cangkul to get rid of them.gees.this is where i feel really manly LOL.the energy used to get the weeds off. o.O enormous.and the paddock is so huge somemore.we did that for so long and i think we didn't even manage to finish a quarter of the paddock.bleh.lunch,napped then it was milking time again.today is the time i felt so horrible.cz cz first thing we got so lost trying to find where is the paddock to chase the cows to the milking shed.so we were so late from the usual milking time. :( next, as usual i was so clumsy.i accidentally sprayed siew yee with the hose.and also pete with the hose. garghhhh.and this and thats.seriously.is there cure for clumsiness???but ahh....came back to the hse and had such nice dinner that cheered me up again. :) mutton,jacket potatoes,salad,mash potatoes and peas for dinner.soo goooood.and after that i was so so full but i still ate this nice pastry thg bunny made.i think its spread with honey and has walnuts on it.very yumssssssssss~ i was sorta rewarding myself after a hard day's work. hehe. and i ws consoling myself by drinking tea.thinking it would burn away the fat and all the food i gobled down. hehe~ but i highly doubt it considering the amount i ate and also cz i put a lot of sugar into my tea.end of day 3.
woke up really early to milk cows.5 am.gosh i cannot remember the last time i actually woke up at 5 am.these days i only stay up until 5 not wake up tht time.owh now come to think of it, just that rare first day of exam cz i was worried. back to milking cows.so the routine is milking cows at 6 am but gotta wake up at 5 smtg,eat breakfast yadaa yadaa. and milk cows.after milking i just got back with my friend to laze around.since that is a sunday there's not much for us to do.so back to our designated room.was too bored i fell asleep.lunch.slept again.there's really ntg much on this day except we went to church at night.its a small little cute church in woodville.and bunny said mostly farmers go there.and the cool thg is its so small everyone knew each other so well.and they would play music and all which i think is so welcome-y countryish.and and.....pete and bunny plays electric guitar.how cool is that??? o.O and the daughter, amber would play the violin.not much for the day.
Day 3
the routine is there you see.milking time is 6 am and 3 pm.around there.its such a tiring day.never thought it would be this tiring cz all the work we done during the weekend seemed ok anyways. well probably cz it was weekend and not much work.monday is just a killer. i have aches all over.i feel like a man.LOL.cz after milking we went to do weed control.yes weeds.do you think of little small sized plants we can use our hands to pluck??well at least i thought weed control probably meant spraying some chemicals or smtg.it turned out to be this bushy thorny thg which is called thistles.gosh.they are bushy.big.with very big fat root too.so we have to use cangkul to get rid of them.gees.this is where i feel really manly LOL.the energy used to get the weeds off. o.O enormous.and the paddock is so huge somemore.we did that for so long and i think we didn't even manage to finish a quarter of the paddock.bleh.lunch,napped then it was milking time again.today is the time i felt so horrible.cz cz first thing we got so lost trying to find where is the paddock to chase the cows to the milking shed.so we were so late from the usual milking time. :( next, as usual i was so clumsy.i accidentally sprayed siew yee with the hose.and also pete with the hose. garghhhh.and this and thats.seriously.is there cure for clumsiness???but ahh....came back to the hse and had such nice dinner that cheered me up again. :) mutton,jacket potatoes,salad,mash potatoes and peas for dinner.soo goooood.and after that i was so so full but i still ate this nice pastry thg bunny made.i think its spread with honey and has walnuts on it.very yumssssssssss~ i was sorta rewarding myself after a hard day's work. hehe. and i ws consoling myself by drinking tea.thinking it would burn away the fat and all the food i gobled down. hehe~ but i highly doubt it considering the amount i ate and also cz i put a lot of sugar into my tea.end of day 3.
farm work!
ahhh.i was thinking of writing bout my farm only after i've finish it actually.but i realise *knowing myself* i will usually lose my oomph and excitement to write after its over.then at that time when i am writing bout it, i wouldn't sound as excited.writing bout it wudn seem as fun to me anymore.LOL.anyways, here is the little descriptions of what i did.
Day 1
saturday, after my all night dedicated to packing with only 2 hours or so of sleep,i arrived at woodville at 1pm-ish.i've been here before.early of this year when i came for the farm trip,or what they called as how-down?don't know how you spell that.came together with siew yee and we shared a room with 3 beds.the other bed is waiting for may may to join us :)
my...the room is cosy.hehe.loved it.its nicer than room back in kairanga.and of cz the one back in msia LOL.it has electric blanket *loves*.the warmth.haha.ohh gees...and i brought tonnes of stuff here.cz i needa be packing for going back as well.so everything is in my luggage.super heavy.i think the mudford's must be thinking.these ppl siao one.come here for vacation of farm work really.hehe.so when we came.we were really blur.ok prob me only considering the fact that siew yee has never been here.so can't blame her eh.its my second time here and i have no idea how i can enter the house.hehe.so paiseh.then we actually called em and they said they'd come out and say hi.LOL.thts so funny.so sia suei more like it.ahhh....so the 1st day here.we helped out in milking cow in the evening since we arrived late for the morning one,which would be around 6 am.woohoo.milking was fun.you dun get milky when you milk.you get pooey.LOL.i haven't took pics so far cz its not really a clean job eh.so difficult to be working and you have to take pics as well.so the milking shed has these suction machines and you put them on the cow udders.haha.they kick at times and siew yee was chatting with felicia and she said of cz they would kick.cz you are strangers and touching their breasts.if stranger touches your breasts you'd kick also.LOL.very geng she.haha.
oh oh.and before that.i get to drive the ATV to chase the cows to the milk shed.so cool!!!!!thts the all terence machine according to jane. :) well,i have to admit.at first i was so freaked out when pete asked me to drive the thg.number one.my driving.think again.number two.i don't get thgs fast.i am a slow learner.hehe.but anyways i got a shot at it.super cool.i cannot emphasise more.LOL.well i suppose its like driving a motorcycle.with a lil difference here and there i suppose.but putting in the gear is so difficult.i have to use 2 hands and sometimes i've gotta stand up too.siew yee said it feels like the driving bike at the mud place.er the extreme sports type.woa.so proud lo.hehe~
so tht was pretty much the first day with dinner *which kiwis call tea* when we came back from milking.you know they refer it to tea when it was already 6 smtg 7. and siew yee was like, "you sure its tea???or they referring as dinner?" i was like nola.shud be tea. LOL. after that we both regret we ate so little.haha.i was paiseh so i ate little.i so regret it cz afterwards i was really hungry.little food does not satisfy me. -.- bunny served noodles cooked with fish,vege, fries and stuff like that with white rice and salad.yums~
ooh and that night i slept so early.at 8 smtg.woke up at 10 smtg to wonder why is it so dark * cz the room's light were off* and then went back to sleep till 5 the next morning.that is the aftermath of the continuous lack of sleep.
Day 1
saturday, after my all night dedicated to packing with only 2 hours or so of sleep,i arrived at woodville at 1pm-ish.i've been here before.early of this year when i came for the farm trip,or what they called as how-down?don't know how you spell that.came together with siew yee and we shared a room with 3 beds.the other bed is waiting for may may to join us :)
my...the room is cosy.hehe.loved it.its nicer than room back in kairanga.and of cz the one back in msia LOL.it has electric blanket *loves*.the warmth.haha.ohh gees...and i brought tonnes of stuff here.cz i needa be packing for going back as well.so everything is in my luggage.super heavy.i think the mudford's must be thinking.these ppl siao one.come here for vacation of farm work really.hehe.so when we came.we were really blur.ok prob me only considering the fact that siew yee has never been here.so can't blame her eh.its my second time here and i have no idea how i can enter the house.hehe.so paiseh.then we actually called em and they said they'd come out and say hi.LOL.thts so funny.so sia suei more like it.ahhh....so the 1st day here.we helped out in milking cow in the evening since we arrived late for the morning one,which would be around 6 am.woohoo.milking was fun.you dun get milky when you milk.you get pooey.LOL.i haven't took pics so far cz its not really a clean job eh.so difficult to be working and you have to take pics as well.so the milking shed has these suction machines and you put them on the cow udders.haha.they kick at times and siew yee was chatting with felicia and she said of cz they would kick.cz you are strangers and touching their breasts.if stranger touches your breasts you'd kick also.LOL.very geng she.haha.
oh oh.and before that.i get to drive the ATV to chase the cows to the milk shed.so cool!!!!!thts the all terence machine according to jane. :) well,i have to admit.at first i was so freaked out when pete asked me to drive the thg.number one.my driving.think again.number two.i don't get thgs fast.i am a slow learner.hehe.but anyways i got a shot at it.super cool.i cannot emphasise more.LOL.well i suppose its like driving a motorcycle.with a lil difference here and there i suppose.but putting in the gear is so difficult.i have to use 2 hands and sometimes i've gotta stand up too.siew yee said it feels like the driving bike at the mud place.er the extreme sports type.woa.so proud lo.hehe~
so tht was pretty much the first day with dinner *which kiwis call tea* when we came back from milking.you know they refer it to tea when it was already 6 smtg 7. and siew yee was like, "you sure its tea???or they referring as dinner?" i was like nola.shud be tea. LOL. after that we both regret we ate so little.haha.i was paiseh so i ate little.i so regret it cz afterwards i was really hungry.little food does not satisfy me. -.- bunny served noodles cooked with fish,vege, fries and stuff like that with white rice and salad.yums~
ooh and that night i slept so early.at 8 smtg.woke up at 10 smtg to wonder why is it so dark * cz the room's light were off* and then went back to sleep till 5 the next morning.that is the aftermath of the continuous lack of sleep.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
mixed feelings
i am going to be away for some time.a few weeks.for those of you,actually most of you would have known i suppose.cz i would have mentioned it to you in some way or another.hmms like the fb inbox that we made into a chatroom *for those of you who knows* LOL
so,farm.i suppose i don't get internet connection there.well actually farms aren't that not modern i suppose but still.i don't suppose if i go there for farm work and i'd be wanting to use their internet eh. and not to mention, using internet to blog or fb *as usual*. hehe~ i don't think that's too convenient.
a mixture of feelings.i haven't had much sleep at all the past few days. i don't have insomnia, no. never had that problem before, lucky me. but i would think that insomnia would definitely save up so much of my time. but, on the other hand i don't think it would be a nice feeling not being able to sleep and rest when you're dead tired huh. today i only have...hmm a couple of hours sleep? don't really know cz i was dead tired from halfway packing, lied down on my bed and fell asleep. lucky my friend texted me....*i assume* some couple of hours later so i woke up. and continued my massive-one day-packing-clearing everything in my room. it's so difficult to pack cz i still have to work in the farm for some weeks and not straight back to msia. not to mention i'm gonna dropby spore first. and all the stuffs i have to bring back *considering its my first year here - i feel obliged to be bringing back stuffs for ppl* yes yes.if you are reading this most probably you're in the list as well. haven't finished buying for everyone yet though.
hmms back to my mixture *strayed off* i am happy its holidays already :). i am worried about my exams if i need to take supplementary *i seriously very seriously hope not :(* i am excited for my farm work, with a great family too that is. i am reluctant to leave my friends *AWESOME* here in palmie. so soon that is too. i am gone when everyone here is still around. don't get to spend much time with them. and when i'm back from farm work. possibly a few days earlier before flying off, all will be gone. back. or not around. boohoo. but i am also looking forward to going home. where my families are. my other bunch of *AWESOME* friends are. but i know soon enough i will be flying back here. its funny how you can love both place as much. reluctant to leave both places. but love the other just as much. aiks.
have so much untangling to do in my mind right now. things to settle. things to look forward to, things to dread. bahhh. shall eat breakfast, continue to finalise my packing - sealing off boxes,vaccuum the room perhaps, shower, throw in chap chap stuffs.
well till then.i suppose when i blog next i will most probably be in msia already??? more precisely taiping. :)
so,farm.i suppose i don't get internet connection there.well actually farms aren't that not modern i suppose but still.i don't suppose if i go there for farm work and i'd be wanting to use their internet eh. and not to mention, using internet to blog or fb *as usual*. hehe~ i don't think that's too convenient.
a mixture of feelings.i haven't had much sleep at all the past few days. i don't have insomnia, no. never had that problem before, lucky me. but i would think that insomnia would definitely save up so much of my time. but, on the other hand i don't think it would be a nice feeling not being able to sleep and rest when you're dead tired huh. today i only have...hmm a couple of hours sleep? don't really know cz i was dead tired from halfway packing, lied down on my bed and fell asleep. lucky my friend texted me....*i assume* some couple of hours later so i woke up. and continued my massive-one day-packing-clearing everything in my room. it's so difficult to pack cz i still have to work in the farm for some weeks and not straight back to msia. not to mention i'm gonna dropby spore first. and all the stuffs i have to bring back *considering its my first year here - i feel obliged to be bringing back stuffs for ppl* yes yes.if you are reading this most probably you're in the list as well. haven't finished buying for everyone yet though.
hmms back to my mixture *strayed off* i am happy its holidays already :). i am worried about my exams if i need to take supplementary *i seriously very seriously hope not :(* i am excited for my farm work, with a great family too that is. i am reluctant to leave my friends *AWESOME* here in palmie. so soon that is too. i am gone when everyone here is still around. don't get to spend much time with them. and when i'm back from farm work. possibly a few days earlier before flying off, all will be gone. back. or not around. boohoo. but i am also looking forward to going home. where my families are. my other bunch of *AWESOME* friends are. but i know soon enough i will be flying back here. its funny how you can love both place as much. reluctant to leave both places. but love the other just as much. aiks.
have so much untangling to do in my mind right now. things to settle. things to look forward to, things to dread. bahhh. shall eat breakfast, continue to finalise my packing - sealing off boxes,vaccuum the room perhaps, shower, throw in chap chap stuffs.
well till then.i suppose when i blog next i will most probably be in msia already??? more precisely taiping. :)
Thursday, November 5, 2009
peculiar, very peculiar
it's funny.it's weird.it's peculiar.it's odd.it's unusual.i would never have thought the feeling would be like that.instead of being more excited, more pumped up,i am more - stunned? i can't really figure out why i am feeling like that. i suppose my friend was right. i understand how she feels cz i am feeling it too. it is probably because i know things around me are going to change soon. something different from what i was accustomed to.the environment, the air, the people, company, even weather. wayyy different in some ways. changes are not bad. just i think i have to prepare my heart and focus towards it. but there is not much time for me to do so really. everything is all planned. as if waiting in line for me to accept them. there is no stop button that i can push to have a pause in between can i? to freeze everything around me for awhile. let me have time to register into my head. pressed into my brain. i guess not. ahh~ and on another random thought. sometimes, how big your problems seem to be. it just ain't that big. if you take a step backwards and look at it. and compare it with others. did you just realise how teeny weeny it is? some people say you shouldn't compare at all but still be appreciative of what you have. but myself, i tend to. i feel lucky cz i am a very blessed person. it's amzing how some people can stay so cheerful despite bigger worries falling all over them. or just hang in there. i suppose you have to have faith. to believe.
no i am not emo. i am just pondering on thoughts. now that i have some free time to accomodate these thoughts, i am allowing them to circle in my mind.
no i am not emo. i am just pondering on thoughts. now that i have some free time to accomodate these thoughts, i am allowing them to circle in my mind.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
november 1st 2009
oh no.oh no.its november already.time just swushed past just like that.i felt like i just came here to new zealand and now it's almost time for me to go back to malaysia.*jumps up and down with joy!*
i can't wait.i can't wait.can you sense the excitement??!!back to my loves.the FOOD.the nice sunny weather.ahhh....everything.not to say i hated here in nz,i love it as much.i DO.but i just miss home after all these time spent here.now i am thinking of what i can do when i get back.PLAY.meeting up with friends.gatherings.news.yum char.shopping.go pasar malam.visit my school.EAT good food :) back to my family,my home.lake gardens.so much to do.i am so excited!urgh.except the timing for me to be excited is totally out of place.i am not suppose to be imagining all these stuffs at these time.it's november but i still have 2 more papers to go.argh!!!!!i know they would be over in no time but i have to focus *focus* in studying and not thinking about what i'd do when holiday starts.cz cz i am still so slow.no progress...sighs.
okok.now back to studying.i seriously have to pay attention and not get distracted *there's so many distractions that i allow to distract me*i shall have lotsa time thinking bout my hols when i finish my exam.yes yes.think about it then.
i can't wait.i can't wait.can you sense the excitement??!!back to my loves.the FOOD.the nice sunny weather.ahhh....everything.not to say i hated here in nz,i love it as much.i DO.but i just miss home after all these time spent here.now i am thinking of what i can do when i get back.PLAY.meeting up with friends.gatherings.news.yum char.shopping.go pasar malam.visit my school.EAT good food :) back to my family,my home.lake gardens.so much to do.i am so excited!urgh.except the timing for me to be excited is totally out of place.i am not suppose to be imagining all these stuffs at these time.it's november but i still have 2 more papers to go.argh!!!!!i know they would be over in no time but i have to focus *focus* in studying and not thinking about what i'd do when holiday starts.cz cz i am still so slow.no progress...sighs.
okok.now back to studying.i seriously have to pay attention and not get distracted *there's so many distractions that i allow to distract me*i shall have lotsa time thinking bout my hols when i finish my exam.yes yes.think about it then.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
the temptation
when the weather today is good.
don't you have the temptation to just lie down on the grass.
look at the blue sky.
decorated with cotton puffs.
if you're lucky.
arched with a rainbow.
enjoy the sun rays shining down on you.
feel the light wind breezing through.
see the trees sway.
hear the birds chirp.
sound of some vehicle passing.
listen to a joyously light song.
just as if you are stopping the time from passing.
at that moment.
forget about your worries.
take in the wonders you have been missing out.
close your eyes.
and
f
e
e
l
.
don't you have the temptation to just lie down on the grass.
look at the blue sky.
decorated with cotton puffs.
if you're lucky.
arched with a rainbow.
enjoy the sun rays shining down on you.
feel the light wind breezing through.
see the trees sway.
hear the birds chirp.
sound of some vehicle passing.
listen to a joyously light song.
just as if you are stopping the time from passing.
at that moment.
forget about your worries.
take in the wonders you have been missing out.
close your eyes.
and
f
e
e
l
.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
me.again.like that.
am i afraid of ppl judging me?or do i honestly feel sorry and i want to change?anyhow.i should watch myself.watch my tongue.my thinking.my impulse.my prejudice perhaps.
Monday, October 5, 2009
reminders
you know like in everyday life, sometimes you just need your phone reminders, alarms telling you what you have to do before you forget, little post its that are stuck up on yr wall - telling you to buy groceries, enrol online, send email for summer work, finish off yr assignment due, study for yr upcoming tests, appointment with lecturer and the list just goes on. i find that it is these reminders that keep my life functioning. else i will just forget what i must do before the deadline. or in other words, i will procrastinate more and just push everything to the back of my head like i don't need to attend to them.
i think the same goes to reminders that are meant to remind you....hmm...of how lucky you are in life. how blessed you are compared to those who are unfortunate. you are, in fact, one of the luckiest in the world. with no worries of whether i have food for today, tomorrow, the day after. or living yr life in fear. or needing to find shelter every now and then. you are blessed because you have a great loving family who cares and supports endlessly. you are even luckier than those others who aren't that unfortunate because you have awesome friends by your side.
but you don't always feel that blessed although you know you are. you rant, you complain, you whine, you wonder why the world is against you when it is not. that is when these reminders come into use. it just wakes you up from all the self pity that you were having. shakes you up and tells you, "hey there. stop complaining. its not gonna get anything done. why rant when you can enjoy and have a far better day?"
its always good to have these reminders once in awhile. tells you tmrw will be a sunny day after all (well probably not tmrw exactly with the weather now in palmie) but the sun always comes out of the rain.
:)
i think the same goes to reminders that are meant to remind you....hmm...of how lucky you are in life. how blessed you are compared to those who are unfortunate. you are, in fact, one of the luckiest in the world. with no worries of whether i have food for today, tomorrow, the day after. or living yr life in fear. or needing to find shelter every now and then. you are blessed because you have a great loving family who cares and supports endlessly. you are even luckier than those others who aren't that unfortunate because you have awesome friends by your side.
but you don't always feel that blessed although you know you are. you rant, you complain, you whine, you wonder why the world is against you when it is not. that is when these reminders come into use. it just wakes you up from all the self pity that you were having. shakes you up and tells you, "hey there. stop complaining. its not gonna get anything done. why rant when you can enjoy and have a far better day?"
its always good to have these reminders once in awhile. tells you tmrw will be a sunny day after all (well probably not tmrw exactly with the weather now in palmie) but the sun always comes out of the rain.
:)
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
strings of memories
*tonnes of smileys to cheer up yr day
*the collection adds on* thanks to me wonderfullous frens who gave em to me for me bday :)
*white water rafting in rotorua :) :)
*kaya+toast in auckland.heavenly.revisiting msia in nz :) :)
*from auckland sky tower*nite view :)
*momo tea-ing in auckland
*rata(dunno how to spell)
*eco (same here)
*ellie?lily?(i forgot)
*the late sammy( i named him.but he's now partly in nc's tummy.partly in michael's.i suppose he's already digested :S )
*heheh~ adorable pug met in countdown :)
*silly putty in mr cue being silly(what she does best lol :) )
*maymay=piggy when d yum char-ing (the snout is durian puff)
*sumo wrestling!!! in sakura fest lol. :)
*my room now (if its neat)
*bday lunch out
*i am 19 (cake courtesy of patpat)*dinner thanks to everyone present :) :)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
в мой последний день подростка
я провел первые несколько моментов моего 19-ого дня рождения, чувствуя себя счастливым и счастливым. я благодарю Бога за все замечательные вещи, которые я имею. я кричу, благодарный, и я не могу отрицать грустный в то же самое время. глупый я, крича мой путь из моей подростковой жизни.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
putting together the right puzzle pieces
what do i want in my life?have you asked yourself that question before?
yea most of everyone would have.in the sense that what you wanna study.what you wanna do for a living.but beyond that.and beyond that.
what do you want in your life?
what is the ultimate goal?
not just another week spent trying not to fail your papers.or another week enjoying yourself,having holidays,having no worries bothering your mind.beyond all those too.
*i have spent my life so far....now that i am reflecting on it.i have not done much.very little in fact.a whole 18 plus years.have i had a purpose all these while living my life?or was i just following the flow?just follow the crowd.its as if i am following where the traffic led me with no end destination in mind.
it was as if everything was laid out readily for me.step by step.what i had to do was just follow through.i don't think i had really thought it over-what else do i want in my life? what do i want to do? what is missing there?
what i had in mind all these while was simple.do what i have always dreamed of.once,i only searched for fun in life.i wished there were no worries.only fun.most unfortunately,life does not come without worries,pain,sorrow.not that they're all bad or good either.its like part of life.cannot be helped.cannot be changed.
due to the existence of sorrow,so there is also happiness,its counterpart.
is happiness the ultimate goal in life?in my life?in everyone else's life?probably not.
but is it not only normal human search for happiness in life?
is there something beyond that?
will i be satisfied if i just continue living my life as it is?
follow as things come my way.
not searching.
not seeking further.
not digging deepeer within.
not initiating.
no.i don't think i'd be satisfied.
i'm sure chance will come my way as long as i am willing to take it in.
be ready to change.take in something new.courageouos enough to try.
fill out the missing piece in the puzzle perhaps.
is that what i am searching for?
yea most of everyone would have.in the sense that what you wanna study.what you wanna do for a living.but beyond that.and beyond that.
what do you want in your life?
what is the ultimate goal?
not just another week spent trying not to fail your papers.or another week enjoying yourself,having holidays,having no worries bothering your mind.beyond all those too.
*i have spent my life so far....now that i am reflecting on it.i have not done much.very little in fact.a whole 18 plus years.have i had a purpose all these while living my life?or was i just following the flow?just follow the crowd.its as if i am following where the traffic led me with no end destination in mind.
it was as if everything was laid out readily for me.step by step.what i had to do was just follow through.i don't think i had really thought it over-what else do i want in my life? what do i want to do? what is missing there?
what i had in mind all these while was simple.do what i have always dreamed of.once,i only searched for fun in life.i wished there were no worries.only fun.most unfortunately,life does not come without worries,pain,sorrow.not that they're all bad or good either.its like part of life.cannot be helped.cannot be changed.
due to the existence of sorrow,so there is also happiness,its counterpart.
is happiness the ultimate goal in life?in my life?in everyone else's life?probably not.
but is it not only normal human search for happiness in life?
is there something beyond that?
will i be satisfied if i just continue living my life as it is?
follow as things come my way.
not searching.
not seeking further.
not digging deepeer within.
not initiating.
no.i don't think i'd be satisfied.
i'm sure chance will come my way as long as i am willing to take it in.
be ready to change.take in something new.courageouos enough to try.
fill out the missing piece in the puzzle perhaps.
is that what i am searching for?
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i feel like blogging at this moment.out of a sudden.i am so sleepy really.and its only 12...
so lazy.haven been doing my studying.tried to pay attention in class..not much success.half understand half no.prob less not understood.
list:
babbling~
so lazy.haven been doing my studying.tried to pay attention in class..not much success.half understand half no.prob less not understood.
list:
- 2 exams next week
- quiz this week
- counselling thu
- library lect thu
- assignment due 24 aug
- another assignment gotta be starting
- gotta be thinking bout my practical work
- thinking (improving i think)
- thinking (hmm..ignoring..)
- thinking (taking time..pending)
babbling~
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
a tribute to maymay's bday :)
i know its been such a long time.hahas.only now i decided to post up some of the pics we took in yatai during may's bday.thats wayyyy back in may.hahas~
i only have some of pics of the wonderful yummy scrumpdiddlycious japanese food we had that day though. :)
i think it was like 5 course meal or smtg.very satisfying...goodness in the food.hehes~the tam chiakness.
i believe may may is bored waiting here.hahas.ooo~ we hired this robes cz we never wore em before. :)
nice brinjal chopsticks holder.
the group who went....mr bart was taking the pic.with the owner's of the restaurant...the lady and her japanese husband.she said he's very shy.lols~
yummy chicken....i rmbr someone couldn't get enough of the nice sweet sauce they cleared all of the sauce on the leave. lols~
sushi!!
chawanmushi....extra nice....very nice and soft...:P
i think this is beef....
uuu~ fish..made especially...not in the menu :)
dessertttttt~
happy may may...:)
i only have some of pics of the wonderful yummy scrumpdiddlycious japanese food we had that day though. :)
i think it was like 5 course meal or smtg.very satisfying...goodness in the food.hehes~the tam chiakness.
i believe may may is bored waiting here.hahas.ooo~ we hired this robes cz we never wore em before. :)
nice brinjal chopsticks holder.
the group who went....mr bart was taking the pic.with the owner's of the restaurant...the lady and her japanese husband.she said he's very shy.lols~
yummy chicken....i rmbr someone couldn't get enough of the nice sweet sauce they cleared all of the sauce on the leave. lols~
sushi!!
chawanmushi....extra nice....very nice and soft...:P
i think this is beef....
uuu~ fish..made especially...not in the menu :)
dessertttttt~
happy may may...:)
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